Dealing With Anger
40 Days of Personal Change, Day 32
Tishrei 3, 5780 / September 21, 2020

I noticed yesterday afternoon that I am in a colossally bad mood. My husband came home from hiking to find me angry enough to be yelling about the internet modem. And we checked my blood pressure, and it isn’t high, so it’s not that!

You know what? The entire month of Elul plus the ten days of awe before Yom Kippur, the whole season of Teshuva, are like that. It’s kinda like the dire straits, but different. Stuff gets boiled out that remains guarded by our self-control for the rest of the year. 

And it’s irritating but it’s a good thing. We need our polished veneer stripped away every now and then so we can tackle the deep roots that are left of our issues once the surface stuff has been dealt with. 

This is our season to not just go with the flow but to get it dealt with. It’s difficult not succumbing to anger, fear, worry, anxiety, and more anger–but we are heading into the Fall Feasts, the season of our joy. We have to learn to live with drama without allowing it to control us. We have to learn how to face uncertainty without being terrified by the possibilities. What will happen will happen, but we have God in our lives through His Messiah, Yeshua. That means we can expect tribulation but we can also grow in trust, love, kindness, peace, and all that jazz. Oh, and to get my anger dealt with. I don’t even know why I am angry–it’s hidden from me. 

We have God. He deserves our trust. Trust doesn’t grow in a vacuum. Trust only happens when we have reason to be worried. Kindness only happens when we want to be cruel. Self-control only happens when we want to lash out. It’s a good time to meditate on the beatitudes and the Sermon on the Mount in the Gospel of Matthew and stop looking at them like impossible standards. We need to become perfect, step by step. We won’t arrive, but we need to be seriously making the journey. What we must never do is write them off as being ridiculous or only allegorical. His teachings are serious, and we must be serious about living them out and surrendering ourselves to the process. 

No excuses.

Tyler Dawn Rosenquist
(used by permission)

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