“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord…” (Jeremiah 29:11a)
Thank you, Father. I’m so grateful, and if you would, could You please share them with me, also?
I used to feel pretty sure of what was coming next in my life. Of what was expected of me. Of what I should and shouldn’t do. Of what any given day was going to look like in any given week, or month, or year. I cruised along on a very comfortable autopilot. Never questioned much at all in my life. So much so, that I was pretty sure others knew much better than I what was best for me.
But for the last 17 years – yep, I’ve been counting – all I can seem to see is the very next step directly in front of me. Try as I might to strain my eyes beyond that, all I can see is fog. It’s been quite disorienting. A true test of trust and faith in God.
You’d think I’d be used to it by now – and I do feel fairly confident most of the time. Yet, something comes along once in a while that spins me around, gives me vertigo. I understand these are times when God is refining me. Yet today – and I’m amazed it’s taken so long – it occurred to me that there may be a connection between the fog and the refinement.
Being on this need-to-know basis with God forces me to diligently seek Him for direction. In the past, though I’ve sought Him, I always needed a second opinion and sought the input and advice of others, usually giving more weight to theirs than to His. This most recent refinement, however, is requiring me to seek Him for myself, to trust myself to hear His voice and to be brave enough to follow His lead.
This has been a hard one for me, a reorientation, because it requires me to make decisions and take actions which have been out of character for me. Certainly out of my comfort zone. Yet I sense it’s time to be brave.
The fog is still out there, but so are His plans in the midst of it.
I will take each step as it comes. It’s a journey I’m willing to take. For He is completely trustworthy. I realize that if I will take the next step and trust, He will reveal the plans He has for me, providing every time, everything I need just when I need it.
BYNA Prayer Director